‘Crowds are a common denominator of stench’. – Friedrich Nietzsche
“You are.. what is.. when no one is looking at you”. This sentence came to me a few months back when I attempted to convey to someone why the question in the title confuses most humans.
What you are cannot be logically defined, but it can be explicitly known from within, and only known by you. U.G. Krishnamurti called it ‘the natural state’, but most people write into it more than there is. The Mind wants something complicated, big, even epic. But it isn’t epic. U.G. was utterly uninterested in making himself a spiritual name, was very simple in his living habits and perceptions, but this simplicity was assigned mystical qualities that he himself rejected. Humans in the majority need idols, role models, deities, right? From this perspective I understand why Jed McKenna keeps himself away from the maddening crowds of potential ‘devotees’.
Simplify. What is this natural state?
Consciousness flies solo, and I understand Solo Consciousness. It is honest, picks its nose when no one is looking, farts, thinks ‘unholy’ thoughts and, unfortunately, sometimes brings those thoughts to fruition. But Solo Consciousness knows NO PRETENCE. When a human is completely alone and not preoccupied by thoughts about other humans – they are at their most real, natural state of being. When there are no other humans around to consider – a person just is, as they are. Imagine being on a desert island… why would one pretend? Who to put up a show for when there are no humans around?
The minute another walks into the room.. see how the picture changes, and how the two Consciousnesses TOGETHER begin to put on an act and lie. They hold in their farts, stop picking their noses, begin to smile even when they don’t feel like it, start telling jokes and otherwise behave in a manner which is generally dubbed ‘civilised’. Civilised, but not what comes to them naturally.
The loss of one’s natural state. Yours is not the same as mine. Perhaps, you always giggle to yourself when alone, while I tend to be quite serious. But I am very content with Self. There is no better company than my own, and two is a crowd in my world.
P.S. The flying crow in the photo was unexpected. I wanted to take a photograph of Trinco’s deserted beach, and the crow flew in. Took me by surprise when I looked at the shots later.